Dissertation Excerpts & Journal Entries

These are excerpts from my personal journal alongside excerpts from my dissertation. I found that I needed a space where I could process thoughts and yell at someone and talk to myself as I struggle to make sense of what I already know, or knew at some point. In these entries, I am not worried about grammar and punc... just sharing my thought process and what I am thinking about.


Methodology & Ontology for the Dissertation

This is what I turned in this semester for my dissertation. It is my methodology, which is Feminist, Metaphysical and Multidisciplinary, and my ontology, which describes an Indigenous model. Caveat: this is part of a much larger work, obviously.  I am not saying I am indigenous and I am not usurping, appropriating, or essentializing wisdom from those cultures that are. Also I use the term Persons as described in

Harvey, Graham. Shamanism: A Reader. London: Routledge, 2003. xvii.

Methodology & Ontology (pdf)

From a class I took with Physicist F. David Peat during my classwork in PhD

Ode to thee Electron

Thee path of thee electron is acausal
Leaping from the unstruck realm
To some where – seen only
Mathematically, as probability
Dancing silently with her silent sister
Mirrored unseen, but chorded
In love, to her, rhythmically

Such Joy! To make manifest a path
From the seeming sphere of angels
Such Lust! To take on life linearly

What to make of such a Goddess?
Whose song sings our cells emergent
What prayers will entice her, will allow us
a sacred sip from her quantum Communal cup
so filled with the dark liquid of empty space
to ecstatically imbibe of her field of living
love that has birthed our own field of mind

we make love and art to find her
we make equations to catch a glimpse of
where she might have been
we gaze at the broken symmetry of our own hearts
we ponder the ancestral patterns of our own hands
we ache in our incompleteness, long for holistic home
& so we make religion

with our brushes and our bodies
with our music and incantations
with our science and our despair
& passions painfully pulsing
the signals – so urgent! – to re-unite
we make the rites we hope will reconnect us

in our dreams we dream her roundness
in our visions we are obsessed with the elliptical
with gravity, with her secret numbered order
in our blood we scream to be free like her
to jump effortlessly through time to appear

Here

or here

Acting from sacred desire, from some unknowable chaotic whim
Footprints in the cold virgin snow.

More Gunn Allen Greatness Feeding the Ontology Section of my Dissertation

“But the oral tradition has prevented the complete destruction of the web, the ultimate disruption of tribal ways. The oral tradition is vital: it heals itself and the tribal web by adapting to the flow of the present while never relinquishing its connection tot he past. Its adaptability has always been required, as many generations have experienced.” 45

Channeled sumthang funny

It’s almost ten and I’m working my little butt off trying to get my dissertation work done and I’ve done really well considering the two half pints yesterday, and working monday today, and I’m feeling all good about myself and as I sit all smuggy while the writing actually is flowing – which is rare for this process, believe me, and I rejoice in this………..I found I wrote this:

“Embop requires the necessary component of empathy or compassion that allows one unique perspective to attempt to understand another. [1] ”

And Embop would be………………..who? I don’t know but I like him.

hahahahha
anything really, it’s that hard

What if we couldn’t see a freakin supernova?

American Indian writer Vine Deloria, Jr. describes the Western conceptions of a static homogenous understanding of time and a uniform operation of nature as a belief so virulent that explanations of natural events have been forced into this ideological pattern even when the facts were obviously otherwise. In God is Red: A Native View of Religion he recounts the search of present-day astronomers for cross-cultural evidence of a supernova that was visible in the sky in various parts of the world in 1054 c.e. While this event appears to have been recorded in the rock art of American Southwestern Indians, specifically the Anasazi residents of the Chaco Canyon, New Mexico, little about it was recorded in European history. Deloria writes that for centuries in Europe the heavens were understood to be constant and fixed because they were the divine creation of the Abrahamic god. He postulates that because this worldview precluded any chaotic movement in the sky, Europeans did not perceive the event—even though it was observable, because their beliefs overrode their actual experience.

The idea that Indians appeared to have observed a celestial event was lost on the scholars who studied the rock art, and many wrote numerous books on the “primitives,” explaining in salient examples of Western academic ignorance and arrogance, how the Indians could not have known that a very bright star does not exist next to the moon. However, because of the Western worldviews held by these scholars, they were not looking for a record of an event in the sky and because they did not understand the practical efficacy that is foundational to an Indian worldview, they did not see what the art might have been depicting. In light of this type of academic “missing the point,” Deloria questions the entire issue of the interpretation of Indigenous religious symbols and beliefs in Western scholarship.

Despite the racist and colonialist disregard, distortion, and appropriation of Indigenous cultures by Western scholars and the unilinear theories of early anthropology that relegated “primitive” societies to the evolutionarily infantile, it turns out that Indigenous worldviews are incredibly profound and complex, and often mirror theories in quantum physics and the new sciences. In fact, current studies in neuroscience support Deloria’s analysis. Traditionally in Western scientific paradigms, human perception was assumed to be determined by sensory information. However, new data reveals the opposite; that it is our predisposition to see that organizes diffuse visual stimuli into perceptions. It is our “intentional dynamics,” or macroscopic feedback loops driven by the limbic brain, that determine the data we seek and the interpretations we make. It is our emotional expectations and desires that filter what environmental input we focus on, what we process, and what we perceive. This means that what we expect to see we usually find and what falls outside of culturally acceptable parameters, that are usually defined by culturally acceptable narratives, may go unprocessed by the brain as an apprehensible pattern and therefore not be perceived in consciousness awareness.

Vine. Deloria Jr., God is Red: A Native View of Religion  (Golden, Colorado: Fulcrum Publishing, 1992). 134.

Michael Winkelman, "Shamanism: A Biopsychosocial Paradigm of Consciousness and Healing,"  (Santa Barbara, Ca: Praeger, 2010). 9.

http://messier.seds.org/more/m001_sn.html

Fallacies or Fantasies

In Indigenous cultures myth is a complementary religious element to ritual. Unlike in a Western worldview, in which myths are considered fallacies or fantasies that are opposed to linear fact, myths are accounts of actual interchanges between ancestors and other relevant persons accessed through ritual. Gunn Allen makes the distinction that the symbolism in tribal ceremonial literature is not symbolic in a Western literary or psychoanalytical sense and is a way of denoting a sacred phenomenon or fact. “Corn” is not shorthand for dinner and “lake” does not allude to economic prosperity via fishing industries.” [1] In this worldview, the color red as a ceremonial element is not reduced to an explanation of the science of light refraction or the response of the oracular cells to light stimulus, but is the quality of a being (person), the color of whom, “when perceived in a sacred manner is red.”[2] Gunn Allen succinctly illuminates the distinct nature of this worldview as opposed to a Western one when she explains an aspect of an Indian story: “Pretty Shield is not indirectly articulating hidden and disowned psychological drives. She is telling about actual conversations with some chickadees.”[3]


[1] Gunn Allen, Grandmothers of the Light: A Medicine Woman’s Sourcebook. 23.

[2] Ibid.23.

[3] Ibid. 6.

My Altar

This is where I write my diss. There are lots of spirit people about as you can see. Click it if you wanna come into my world of a lot of talking ancestors.

Dissertation Quote

In Pueblo Gods and Myths, Hamilton A. Tyler asks, “Why do the Pueblos still dance? For whom do they dance? What do they mean by their dancing?” His examination of previous research revealed an obvious and conventionally satisfying answer: “For rain.” His response sheds light on the biased Western perspective in regard to Indigenous traditions, one that he did not share. He writes that “Rain is not a wrong answer, but it is a limiting one. My first premise was that these people do not worship rain, they invoke it.”

Tyler, Hamilton A. Pueblo Gods and Myths: University of Oklahoma Press, 1964.- pls note that Tyler was not a scholar, but just fell in love with the Indigenous Southwest. His research is approached with no agenda and I find him refreshing and poignant.