The Inquisition is Now

“The Inquisition is more accurately viewed not as a relic but as a harbinger.” – Cullen Murphy God’s Jury: The Inquisition and the Making of the Modern World

I am studying the Middle Ages in Europe right now and am trying to make sense of the incredible violence perpetrated upon those deemed heretics by the Church and their concomitant allies such as the monarchies and their lower level (cough..demons…did I say that or think it?) duchies, lords, and wannabe upper class administrators who imposed the will of the Church upon regular people as they meted out and enforced the laws of an increasingly centralized government and the royalty that were intent upon increasing their power.

What I am finding is a hideous historical loop. Heretics in the Middle Ages included those non-sanctioned Christian sects, Jews, the poor, homosexuals, women, and my favorite –witches who were scapegoated and annihilated by these growing powers. What I am finding – to my horror – is that what was happening then has never stopped happening and is happening how.

I thought I was studying history, but it turns out that I am studying the present. Now I see this Inquisitional intention and its self-replicating tentacled bureaucracy everywhere — in the futile death clown car spectacle that is our election process in 2016; in the increasing attempts at legislating sexual activities and the reproductive powers and autonomy of women, and in the exposure of the elite and their resource grabbing in the Panama papers….I mean this is enough to make me crazy.



Happy Spring! Wake Up!

Well it’s Spring 2016, and as the outdated modes of thinking and being are dying an undignified death, and as those who hold on to them in the public arena are increasingly being exposed as the distorted clown car demons that they are, let us take this opportunity to make a leap in consciousness powered by the power of the spring season.

Animal Processions Cucuteni Vase2_pg302

Spring is a time of waking up, of shaking off the slumber of winter and getting ready to arise. This energy, as other Pagans will tell you, is exciting because it signifies beginnings, but it can be uncomfortable because it signifies the need to grow. Think about that idea of GROWTH through the lens of the physical, rather as an empty sentimental platitude, and you will find it entails transformation in its form as death staring you in the face welcoming you to the seasonal power party.

Cucutani Lid_pg58

Like a cold slap of water in the face after a long dream-filled night’s sleep, growing means the work of shedding, of transforming current skin into new skin. It means stretching the boundaries of self into a new form so that we can reach toward the photonic light that is seductively calling us, and has since we emerged from the primordial pond of consciousness.dishbecoming_pg194

Since reality is holographic, this seasonal energy operates on all levels. The cycles of nature work through us despite us, whether we “believe” in them or not. Everyone is slightly anxious now, ready for something to happen, and kinda unsatisfied in what used to satisfy or comfort us. This is because the Cosmos is signalling us through the energies of Spring. We can see it around us everywhere in our environment. We can feel in our bodies, in our desires, in our kinetic uncomfortableness. We work with this Spring energy when we ACKNOWLEDGE and ACT upon the message: IT’S GO TIME.

Two links that speak speak to my heart now regarding the process of waking up!

Artist Karen Sikie who says it better than me here:

A Pretty Picture Conceals the Story of Birth and Death

And Terrence McKenna who has summed up what I am trying to do in my dissertation by retrieving my ancestral European female spiritual states of consciousness:

Shamanism (Terence Mckenna) [We Have Become a Sick Species]

Note: These images are from Neolithic Europe.

Metaphysics! Let’s Expand that Consciousness!

It is rare to find someone with the wisdom of a metaphysical master who is in the same league as my spiritual teachers Norma Tringali, Nancy Six, G’an Wright and Esau who were leaders at the now defunct metaphysical powerhouse church and Western Mystery school called AMRON that operated in the 1990s in San Francisco, and boy do I miss people who speak like this. Almost every time I come upon a message from an awake or semi-awake person that resonates with my highest self, I end up feeling profoundly disappointed because DOH! their message is usually polluted with religious fundamentalism, racism, and sexism. But so far, not with this guy Naazir Ra.

I crave like minds who understand the mysteries that our Ancestors have passed to us, which we usually do not heed, or even remember due to the trauma inflicted upon us. I like a lot of people’s messages that are on Thee Path and who publish their messages on You Tube, but everyone is flawed, including myself.

On saying that I really feel this breath of fresh air when I listen to Naazir Ra. I am guessing that his soul drew the short end of the stick because he had to manifest to teach awakening at the time of the Kali Yuga. I appreciate that he is speaking to his community because we really need for those of African descent to wake up to their power after the trauma and colonialism that that they and their Ancestors have experienced in this timeline.

In my shamanic practices and academic studies searching for and researching my European Foremothers and their shamanic and spiritual practices, I have realized what others in my field understand: that the female human originating out of Africa is the first template of our species in the physical plane and that is was HER sacred evolution of consciousness- as depicted in the archaeological record and recorded in mythology and the mysteries – that represents the golden grail from which all CONSCIOUSNESS AS YOU EXPERIENCE IT AND RELIGION AS YOU KNOW IT ORIGINATES. Would I be redundant in asking if you catch the implications of that drift?



Kali & the Kali Yuga

Writing a dissertation is a strange initiatory journey. You kinda don’t really understand what you are writing about until you are writing it. One thought leads to many others. It has been hard to rein in the many trajectories; one realization leads to another entire landscape of thought.

It seems though that my focus has been engrossed in the connection between the divine feminine, physics, shamanism, and consciousness studies. By assuming the multiverse is holographic in nature, and not materialistic or dualistic, I, like other scholars and thinkers who think about this stuff, have been able to make some really liberating connections.

I was researching the Kali Yuga, which in Hindu mythology/theology is the cycle of historic time we are in now that is like a hell realm. This is of course what we are  experiencing. Anybody with a pulse knows we are in an age of extreme imbalance now.

In that excursion I found this very cool site with what I am guessing is partially channeled info that discusses the original female creatrix as both the unity and the many manifestations of deity. Check that out here:

Chapel of our Mother God

The many arms of our Mother God

In my research on the dark goddesses and the shamans, priestesses, and witches who serve these goddesses, I have found that one of their functions is to mete justice, and that the role of the spiritual intermediaries that serve them is linked to oracles and prophesy. Hello warnings from the psychic women! And so it is now. Shamanic and matristic cultures sought balance with the ensouled world that sustain them. When something in the society was out of balance they acknowledged that the aspect of the divine creatrix would inevitably manifest as the dark goddess in order to restore balance. Often this movement of energy, like the Tower card in the Tarot, means a big-assed cleansing. Like a hurricane in force and power, the balancer energy is destructive.

Now, taking into consideration the insane asylum consensual consciousness we are currently living in and the predatory death and slave culture we have created as a result, it is clear that the dark goddess of destruction is the only one for the job of restoring balance. We are in need of the dark goddesses who correct what is way way outa whack. My fav is of course Kali.

I have a really cool reference by Ajit Mookerjee. The pictures are killer (pardon thee pun) and in it I just found a poem by the guru Vivekananda on page 108 that pretty much sums up the Kali Yuga and the power of the restorer of justice Kali Ma. Pretty much sums up NOW. Jai Ma!

Kali: The Feminine Force

Kali the Mother
The stars are blotted out,
Clouds are covering clouds,
It is darkness, vibrant, sonant,
In the roaring whirling wind
Are the souls of a million lunatics,
Just loose from the prison house,
Wrenching trees by the roots,
Sweeping all from the path,
The sea has joined the fray,
And swirls up mountain-waves,
to reach the pitchy sky,
The flash of lurid light
Reveals on every side
A thousand, thousand shades
Of death begrimed and black –
Scattering plagues and sorrows,
Dancing mad with joy,
Come, Mother. Come!
For terror is Thy name,
Death is in Thy breath,
And every shaking step
Destroys a world for e’er,
Thou ‘Time’, the All-Destroyer!
Come, O Mother. Come!
Who dares misery love,
And hug the form of Death,
Dance in destruction’s dance,
To him the Mother Comes.





FOREMOTHERS of the Women’s Spirituality Movement: Elders and Visionaries

A new and unique offering from this field of study. Included in this anthology are women who have been my mentors, friends, and peers who have paved the way for women’s spirituality scholarship and who have expanded the areas of history, archaeology, the arts, psychology, religion, and science. This is DESPITE the horrific headwinds and backlashes that have accompanied our scholarship. I have always said that being in this area of study and practice was, to quote the former governor of Texas Ann Richards, like being Ginger Rogers who did everything Fred Astaire did, but backwards and in high heels.

Consciousness Studies Expanded – Another Voice of Reason

In my research I have also come up with the premise that what is going on now in this world is a psychic battle for our consciousness. The horror that everyone viscerally feels can be interpreted through a lot of lenses; gender, politics, sociology, psychology, theology, and economics, but at it’s root, this is a battle for where we focus our perception and how we analyze, respond, and experience our holographic environment. It is a battle for our consciousness and therefore it is a battle for our souls. My entire dissertation has focused upon the nature of consciousness as it is rooted in shamanism, and in women’s mysteries. So it is very cool to have another say what “crazy” things I am thinking and putting into words in academia, which doesn’t recognize methodologies that are able to frame history and social science in this way–as spiritual, as psychic, along with all the other modalities of parsing human culture and experience that stray out of the box of that fallacy “objectivity.” My dissertation has been an initiation for me — a soul retrieval — which is exactly what I said I was gonna do. So I love this guy too.

Also notice that more truths are coming out now. The holodeck is losing integrity and I’m on it Captn! It’s time to wake up.

Shut Down

Update 11-11-15: He started another channel in response to his shutdown available here:

Well my guy E at the Truth Virus was shut down off Youtube. That is why that video is no longer accessible. And that was one on chakras!

Here’s an alternative offering by W.I.S.E

My husband thinks I am secretly fashioning a tin foil hat, but I am not. My dissertation is nearly completed. I am of course battling school that is always changing regulations  because it is an entity devoted to its own existence. However, I appreciate being able to go through the education and initiation that I have been undertaking for the last decade at CIIS. I appreciate a place where I can express my female spiritual and intellectual voice and learn about the great mysteries available in academia, including consciousness studies, the new sciences, feminism and womanism, the new archaeology, philosophy, and colonialist theory – exciting areas on the frontier of knowledge.

I, like many others who feel that we as human beings deserve an education and the passing on of ancestral memory and knowledge, am in great debt – no real debt-  to the corporation of the United States and this is a real blasphemy because I work and they take taxes (energy) and spend it on the military industrial complex that make the elite rich. However, I wanted this education, and without it I would not have understood what I now understand and to understand has been my purpose in life and so I am grateful that I was able to take this pathway, as skewered as it is. The inquiry that has driven me since I was 13 was to understand why this reality has always seemed wrong to me. I always felt like I woke up in the wrong scene.

Seems that besides my journey into understanding our European ancestral female shamanic past, I also am very interested in the man behind the curtain who is trying to take our power in the present. So, no tin foil hat today, but a great distrust of media, of corps, and like everyone else in this country today — of politics. As my guy E said on truth virus before they shut him down. “Think for yourself. Research everything for yourself and come up with your own thoughts.” I feel like I am doing that in the dissertation.