Traffic Jam

When I get stuck in my writing it is because i have a traffic jam of thought in my head. But it is very hard to remember everything I have read and absorbed and very hard to be clear all the time of how it all comes together as a holism. Linear as this is, it is not that way really because we have to think, not like a big spine of an outline, but as a holism, where this is connected to something over there. That part is crazy-making. This process is like laying a freakin’ egg from the head.